I am a mother to two beautiful children that I homeschool. I am passionate about living my life purposefully. My whole life I have been drawn toward any way I can achieve self-growth. I have been studying life and myself for 38 years and I am proud of all the growth I have achieved and I know I have so much more to do (as if there is an end!).
AND with all my growth, I struggle. And not that somehow, after all that learning and growing, we don't ever struggle again - as if we graduate from ever being challenged. I am still learning not to be so hard on myself, which is probably the lesson I am learning.
I still feel myself overthinking this post. I am getting tired *yawn* 1am. But its so nice to sit quietly on the couch typing on my laptop in peace. I love my children AND I need my quiet time, my alone time, my space - just me in silence. ahhhhhhh. There goes my brain "I need to meditate more, do some yoga ..."
SO, dancing heart drum. so yea, I'm a modern hippie, I eat organic food, I use essential oils, I clean my house with vinegar, peroxide and baking soda. I like to meditate, do yoga, and think of spirituality as understanding myself and studying myself and humanity and not as a religion. I love my children so deeply and my choice to homeschool them is so that they grow up not feeling ashamed of who they are and that they feel empowered to move through life fluidly; following their hearts and souls without or very little doubt that is their choices are perfect for them.
For me, it has been challenging to overcome low self-esteem and feeling powerless to make my own choices for MY own life. Waiting for someone to give me permission or tell me what to do. For so long I did that. And for so long I didn't even realize how hard it was for me until one day someone said, you choose. Crazy as it sounds it was so hard. But slowly, I learned to make choices on my own without feeling as if I needed approval.
I have healed myself and I am still working on healing some more. It takes time as my impatient self has learned. Expand and contract. Expand and contract.
My hope is that life will flow a little better for my children. They will have their own learning, yes, but listening to their hearts will be as natural as breathing. Perhaps.
I have benefited from the love and sharing from so many people whether it was in person or on the internet. I am so grateful for all the information out in the world - so many times I found someone who felt the same as me or articulated an idea that I had in my mind. It was wonderful and validating and helped me feel not so alone. Thank you for allowing the space for others to share.
I hope to be that benefit to someone, anyone - and if not, at least for me. As I feel I have so much to say. This process is part of my fulfillment.
So to anyone out there reading. Thank you.
AND with all my growth, I struggle. And not that somehow, after all that learning and growing, we don't ever struggle again - as if we graduate from ever being challenged. I am still learning not to be so hard on myself, which is probably the lesson I am learning.
I still feel myself overthinking this post. I am getting tired *yawn* 1am. But its so nice to sit quietly on the couch typing on my laptop in peace. I love my children AND I need my quiet time, my alone time, my space - just me in silence. ahhhhhhh. There goes my brain "I need to meditate more, do some yoga ..."
SO, dancing heart drum. so yea, I'm a modern hippie, I eat organic food, I use essential oils, I clean my house with vinegar, peroxide and baking soda. I like to meditate, do yoga, and think of spirituality as understanding myself and studying myself and humanity and not as a religion. I love my children so deeply and my choice to homeschool them is so that they grow up not feeling ashamed of who they are and that they feel empowered to move through life fluidly; following their hearts and souls without or very little doubt that is their choices are perfect for them.
For me, it has been challenging to overcome low self-esteem and feeling powerless to make my own choices for MY own life. Waiting for someone to give me permission or tell me what to do. For so long I did that. And for so long I didn't even realize how hard it was for me until one day someone said, you choose. Crazy as it sounds it was so hard. But slowly, I learned to make choices on my own without feeling as if I needed approval.
I have healed myself and I am still working on healing some more. It takes time as my impatient self has learned. Expand and contract. Expand and contract.
My hope is that life will flow a little better for my children. They will have their own learning, yes, but listening to their hearts will be as natural as breathing. Perhaps.
I have benefited from the love and sharing from so many people whether it was in person or on the internet. I am so grateful for all the information out in the world - so many times I found someone who felt the same as me or articulated an idea that I had in my mind. It was wonderful and validating and helped me feel not so alone. Thank you for allowing the space for others to share.
I hope to be that benefit to someone, anyone - and if not, at least for me. As I feel I have so much to say. This process is part of my fulfillment.
So to anyone out there reading. Thank you.
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